online diary of my pregnancy, originally written October 2017
Just like any woman, and especially when it's her first time being pregnant, I am, of course concerned with the process of being pregnant. One of my biggest moments of concern was the day I learned I was pregnant and I had just done the hero workout "murph" RX the day before... and PR'd my time!
However, while it's important to be mindful of the stress you are putting your body under when pregnant, pregnancy should not be viewed as a handicap. There's a lot of fear associated with pregnancy - a terrifying list of do's and don'ts. I'm not suggesting there are no justifiable fears - I just think that people could drive themselves crazy trying to be perfect during their pregnancy and adhere to every single contradictory "rule."
That's why I decided to document my pregnancy. Maybe mine looks a lot like yours, maybe there are no similarities at all. There's no need to compare... this is just my experience.
There have been several noticeable changes throughout these weeks!
Week 8 - we told our family + friends using the 'bun in the oven' method ;)
Week 12 - Jordan and I decided to make our "Instagram official announcement"
Week 16 - I had to stop running due to back pain - I've subbed in other modalities to replace running. Given that I am on my feet all day for work, it just isn't worth aggravating any areas of my body. I was a bit disappointed, as I've witnessed so many others run well into their pregnancy... but it just wasn't in the cards for me.
(more on pregnancy and back pain later)
Week 19 - we found out the gender, and revealed to our friends + family + the world....
see gender reveal
Week 20 - I had set a (foolish) goal that I was going to try to go the duration of my pregnancy without buying maternity clothing. I thought for sure my lululemons would stand the test of my belly growth!
However, this week, despite my refusal, it was time to give up my regular clothes and switch into some maternity clothing. I am not a good shopper on the best of days, and it took all of my strength not to have a toddler-sized temper tantrum as my husband and mother-in-law took me to Kohl's in Port Huron to do some maternity clothing shopping.....
(got some good deals, though)
Weeks 12-20 - give me all the carbs, let me sleep and please do not touch my stomach without asking first.
I found myself searching instragram with the hashtags of "19weekspregnant" or whatever the week is, and comparing other woman's size to my own. I don't know why I am doing this - I guess reassurance that I'm growing normally - not too fast, not too slow?
I'm also feeling odd in my own body + clothes. I'm not ready to commit to maternity clothes yet, but I'm just barely squeezing into my regular clothes. From week 12-20 I gained about 6lbs, but it's more the change in body composition that I've noticed.
I've started getting pregnancy advice, and having moms share their birth stories with me. I actually love this! Everyone's story is so unique - which just leads me to believe that our bodies are going to do whatever they want to do.
In week 12 I made some major decisions regarding my health care. When I had presented to my MD in week 5, I felt thoroughly dismissed in my appointment. There had been nothing more than an exchange of my telling her "I'm pregnant!" and her doing a quick calculation to determine my due date. I had expressed a legitimate concern I had with genetics and my family history and it was completely ignored. I would have liked to have an overview of what to expect to come - timeline of anticipated ultrasounds among other pregnancy milestones.
No, the only advice I got from my doctor was "don't lift anything heavy or do anything that causes more than a light sweat" ..... really? REALLY!
I decided to leave my MD and switch to a nurse practitioner, and also go under the care of a midwife.
Having a nurse practitioner and a midwife meant more support, more education and more opportunity to feel like I had control over my own body. An opportunity to ask questions and to feel like I am still me, while I rent out my uterus for 39 weeks. I left both of these appointments with information on what to expect over the next several weeks, and plenty of support material.
Being empowered during pregnancy is critical.
Being active is not the same thing as being careless
Living in a pregnancy bubble is not the same thing as being careful and mindful of your health
There is a difference between sensible caution and fear mongering
Dr. Alli Cain